Dear Grief, Someday I shall meet them all again!

Dear Grief,

Dear Grief is about sharing what you would like to say to grief and the different ways we deal with grief.
 This is similar how I have been writing in my journal of the Dear… series which you can find here.   
(https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLD1nCoeovTZ5I0AP4Xb9f1WVnUUgwh_lG)
 As we know that grief does affect others in many different ways. Living with grief is tough and it
  changes you, but we can help each other by sharing messages so people know they’re not alone.
Dear Grief is about sharing what you would like to say to grief and the different ways we deal with grief.
This is similar how I have been writing in my journal of the Dear… series which you can find here.

(https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLD1nCoeovTZ5I0AP4Xb9f1WVnUUgwh_lG)
As we know that grief does affect others in many different ways. Living with grief is tough and it
changes you, but we can help each other by sharing messages so people know they’re not alone.


Note: A Video of this will be coming out later on this week. Link to this video is: https://youtu.be/y8tprANFx0k

As I walk through these lonely long footsteps now after hearing the tragic
yet horrific news about some of the people in my life has now gone
out of my life through death. That death came knocking at their door and that death has taken them away for whatever reason it may be. I am walking in disbelief, shock and anger wondering to myself, “Why?” “What did I do to make it wrong?” And so many more of these unanswered questions. I had all sorts of crazy thoughts that were running through my mind at the time. These unanswered questions and thoughts needs to be silenced once more.
Time stood still when I heard this as it felt like almost a sharp dagger stabbed my broken heart as I ache to have the ones that I loved and cherished in my life to still be here. Yes, I have so many mixed feelings, emotions and thoughts right now. Yet, it saddens me that the place where some of us have been and seen is now just a memory and a place of comfort and peace. I come here often as this is a quiet place for me to sit down to think and to write as well as to reminisce all the memories that has been shared through it all. But, now it breaks my heart that the places that was shared, the laughter shared, the tears shared and more is now gone. I only have now some photos as well as some letters from the ones that wrote to me as well as knowing now that they’re only here with me in spirit.

Dear Grief as you know that despite the loved ones and friends that I had are now gone, writing in my journal gives me so much peace and comfort
and it helps me alot just by pouring all my hurt, thoughts onto a page or in this case on the screen.

Dear Grief,
I want to ask you how did it happen, why did it happen, why now? Why did some of my friends and family that I loved and adored
had to suffer the situations that they went through and not even bother telling me about it? Why did they had to think that they were
doing me a favor to end their life or even just death in itself take them away. I question myself, was I good enough to be standing
by them through their hard times even if I didn’t see the signs of what was really going on in their life?
Would I be able to be their superhero, or even just some listening ear or board when they needed someone the most? I feel so hurt and angry. I cry every time I hear the names of my friends and loved ones that has passed. I cry every time
when I hear their name to the ones that has left some precious and special people in their lives of their parents, children and grandchildren. I cry when I now know that they’re now gone and won’t forever see the beauty of this world of what the world is like and what their future would have been like. Some of them to have their own family, grow old and learn from their mistakes and just to grow in themselves in spirit.
All the while that the nevers that is said are breaking me to pieces and breaking my heart.
Another day starts and that life goes on from the ones that are gone and that I have realised with them gone that I have now been given more peace, hope and inner
courage and strength to continue my life. You’ve taught me that there’s one life and chance in this lifetime to make things right and if I fall down or feel that I have failed something, I just gotta keep on going and not let anything or anyone stand in my way. I feel some days that they are at a standstill because the times that has been shared is now slowing down. But, grief, I know that you’re here to stay with me for a reason. And, also grief
you’ve also become a part of me into what I am going through to what I am now becoming.
It makes me happy and at peace when I think about the ones that I have loved and lost along the way. I have been with them through the thick and thin and that
we may have fought some times and that I have been with them with some part of the journey of where they were. Despite it all, in spirit they are with
me and that they keep me going. Many of the ones that I have loved and lost along the way has inspired me to be the best me I can be and to be an inspiration
to others big or small accomplishments made as well as making some of my dreams and goals a reality. With sharing memories to the world of my loved ones and friends, it brings me so much happiness. When grief is being shared, it feels less lonely and not
feel that I am in the dark as there’s others out there that will need me for whatever reason it may be. When any of my loved ones or friends that I’ve lost of their names being shared, it just brings spark of joy, happiness and laughter. Doing some of the things for my loved one and friends is so precious to me to share with others do bring me some HOPE. My loved ones and friends will always be who and what they are to me. My love for my loved ones and friends will continue to shine and radiate through to others as they come on my journey and path of life to show me what life means to them. Grief you’ve completely changed my life yet the bond shared with my loved ones and friends hasn’t changed along with whatever memories that we had and shared will still be there. I have said this many of times yet now I am writing it to pen to paper as well as sharing it to the world. I am now accepting you grief! Why you may ask? As you have now been accepted as part of my life, love for everyone I’ve lost.

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